I know where you're at, Kumiko. Don't get down in the dumps, it isn't worth it. I had the same problem with a girl named LannaBannana who left enjin 2 days ago, I told her I loved her, she loved me, and trust me, this shit is pure. I showed her I loved her, she loved me by showing me too, but she turned. She left me for a 17 year old guy and I felt like I was in the wrong. No, I wasn't, because I was there to love her but she wasn't there for me, I blocked her and told her that it was her turn to be rejected. Some people need to see rejection to know life. Life is cruel, Kumiko, but if you stay the beautiful girl you are, you will move past people that you used to love and find the perfect match soon enough. You will find your soulmate! Remember these two quotes forever and you will find a way around the hard points in life.
"Those who do not remember the past are condemned to repeat it."
"The choices that we make dictate the life that we lead."